first update in a month and it's to say I may not update for 3 weeks(kids can you say redundant.. repeat after me now.... re-dun-dant)
for those of you I haven't told in person.......I'm flying out on Monday morning to spend Christmas and new year with foxie
(e back about the 4th of Jan)
I'll be taking my laptop with me..... but it's use will depend on if I can get my hands on an external screen
(my laptop screen is still cracked since I was saving up for the trips.. rather then repairing it)
to say I'm excited and nervous is an understatement (i've been packed and ready to go for a week)
not only am i going to be there for 3 weeks.... but I will probably be meeting all of the immediate family while I'm there (and anyone who attends the family Christmas party)
foxie is beside himself and has been babbling on for the last few weeks about all the surprises he has planned (one of which is a choc indulgence date...^_^ and me taking him to see tron legacy)
...... this is going to be fun.....at the very least...... it will be special to see in the new year like this
mum is going through the "my baby doesn't need me any more" thing that mothers do
as much as she is happy and I have her assurance that she is going to be ok for Christmas... you can tell shes a little sad
honestly other then that... nothing else has really happened..... I do hope I have a lot more to post about in the next few weeks ( even if I have to collar a fox and drag him around kicking and screaming)
*sighs then smiles *wish me luck
- Current Mood: ecstatic
- Current Music:arms of an angel -Sarah McLachlan
this will be a short one.... nothing really much has happened in the last 10 days
my piano lessons are going good.... I know what I need to learn for the assessment well enough
can play "the rose" and "stand by me"
and thought i'd try my paw at arms of an angel
foxie is in the middle of his exams.. so i've seen him less then normal.. but he's on skype at bed time like clock work.. so I'll live
Um..... that's about it
oh.. the weather has finally decided it's going to be summer.. so we are hitting 30-40 C days ( 90-110 F), so i'm slowly dieing as on does n this heat...^_^.....
- Current Mood: indifferent
sing..... it make people drive faster and the ride shorter
something I left out before... foxie and mother met over the weekend..... they get a long well enough
talked at length about random things.... and she asked a few questions
- Current Mood: amused
Foxie ,may be spending his 6 months down my way... assuming he can get over his bad homsickness
it's 50/50 but a dingo can hope
honestly if he does that.. it will say alot ( or nothing at all... being his first relationship.. maybe i'm just reading to much into things)
just found out my boyfriend may need to reassess what he wants as a career.....
so not only will he probably take a 6 month leave of absence (meaning he'll have no money to fly over next year as planned)
it also means no big pay check in 3 years time to help me move down there and buy a house
*shrugs it was an easy way dream anyway
i'm use to doing things the hard way.. just annoyed that it always is the hard way
I will admit like normally.. I really don't have much to update
1. I did end up telling my mother about Foxie.... which she took in her usual annoying stride
so now all that's left is an actual introduction
she did surprise me by by asking if I wa thinking of moving down foxies way
yeh sure I have.... but that's in 3-4 years time..... the fact that she's approving of it now...*meerff*
I quote " I know long distance relationships don't work all to well.. so your thinking about moving down to him are you?"
I both love her and am annoyed by the way she treats these things.... I actually build up the courage to say something and.. the response is " oh.. alright"... *chuckles*
I wouldn't swap mothers for the world
Foxie..is doing well too...... even if he makes me feel foolish
any concern I might have..... and I love him dearly but there are many.. ( as there are in most relationships)... he seems able to silence with a sentence or two
there is a honest innocence about him... no promises.. just a nervous willingness to try and do anything reasonable to keep me happy
so I ask something and end up feeling like it was foolish to even doubt... *smiles*
another month... then I can look him in the eye when he says " I love you".. and he can look me in mine when I reply
side note.. I might be leaning the piano..... it depends on if my fingers can stop hurting from what little practice I've done
- Current Mood: happy
I seem to do this every 6 months for what ever reason
this time I'm chalking it up to a for to silly separation anxiety
which is both perplexing and annoying....... at anyrate.. I'm back
nothing new to report..... I think... * checks journal*
still haven't got around to telling mum about foxie..
*chuckles*... was going to do it last weekend..
but he decided to go to a party and wasn't home till 5 am (not his fault I didn't make plans persay)
I will admit my desire to have things like this.. be done quickly and cleanly...
( I tell her she meets him and they talk... OVER.. me saying something then having to wait in till they have a chance to meet and talk)
is slightly working against me.. so I'm going to bite the bullet...... maybe...>_<
the December trip.. is a bit bouncy too..... still trying to work out accommodation.. if I had it my way
i would be there from the 13 Dec to the 3 Jan.... ( which is very unlikely)
right now I seem to be pushing the 24th.... if that......
foxie keeps forgetting to ask people if I can stay with them.....
(makes me wish I had contacts in Melbourne).....
so right now (and I love his mother dearly for this).. I have 5 days at his mother house. (for 2 bottles of wine)..
then rest will be a hotel room somewhere out of the money I take over..... which mean a short stay
but I must not complain.... I was at best hoping for I could stay 3 days when this was brought up 2 months ago.. now I might get a week
I really would love to spend christmas and new year there...*sighs* I'll just have to use the time I have well
SIDE NOTE.. i'm taking another shot at the perth furry community
I have to keep reminding myself that the words of the few do not reflect the thoughts of the many....
- Current Mood: okay
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- Current Mood: contemplative
or to hold your tongue in till you know it really is true
i'm a quiet dingo..... a mutt of few words.. because that was the best way for me to survive earlier in my life
you keeps your muzzle down, took nothing at face value, and never let anything slip your lips unless there was an advantage in it for you and your problems are your own to handle
it's a thinking that affects my even now days.... in small ways
one of these ways is..... i'm.... reluctant to announce things.... in till I'm completely sure or have no other choice...... and I know this does annoy and hurt people
it's a constant complaint from my mother........ that I never tell her anything in advance, if at all.....I will admit having lost the ability to talk to her freely over the years
she does ends up knowing 90% of what goes on..... even if it's told after the fact
(i tend to keep the small problems to myself..... deal with them... and not bother people unless they can help_)
i'm not good with running commentries..... instead give monthly status reports and I will always leave out the things that aren't currently ongoing
but that doesn't top me from being guilty when she finds out about something..... how ever long later
which lead me to the question
in context........my foxie...... it's been 4 months now....... and I know I'm in love with the idea..... but I won't know for sure till after Dec
so do I have the right to keep something possibly this large from her..... simply in case it amounts to nothing
or should I just own up blushing and all..... and go through the things mothers do in these cases
one thing I have to do at least is get a proper photo to show.......*smiles*
I will admit being a little scared about taking a step down the "it's real" path...... which telling a parent is a big step in
- Current Mood: weird
and bored,,,, so at the risk of opening the floodgates of Heck
- Current Mood: bored